RAPED AND BLAMED

I feel sick over and over

 For I am blamed for being raped

 They say your dressing exposed you to that danger

 For they say moving at night and alone is not safe

 But I was raped in my own house and in my own bed

 Where can a woman feel safe and free?

I feel dirty and used

But there is no one to listen to me

Because they are all blaming and judging me

For what I don’t know. For I cry night and day

For the pain to go away and for the injuries to heal

I feel empty and lonely for there is no one to listen

To my sorrows because my family and friends

have neglected me.

I sock myself in water to wash away

His dirty touch, his sweat, and his words out of my

Mind but, still, their pain is eating me up.

The pain is killing me for I am broken into thousand pieces

So, I feel death is the only way out for a person like me  

But they said am weak. Yes, I am weak, yes, I gave up too soon

But the strong ones what have you done to help me in this

Fight of depression, emotional breakdown, and mental stage

You watched me suffer and die slowly and yet you did nothing

Blame me not for you have an idea of the battles I fought and

The number of tears I had to shed

When you laid in your bed peacefully

I fought my fight till the very end alone

And so now l lay in peace for my time

has come.